SWIMMER IN A MISTY RIVER

By Jo

It was strange, he thought, how only the willow was green. None of the other trees along the

riverbank were in leaf, not one. He'd always liked willows. There was something graceful

about them, poetic, as though words, heavy with their weight of meaning, had rained down

on them and the slender branches draped under the force of time and tears.

 

Ah, Hamilton, he chuckled, you should have majored in literature rather than journalism.

But he hadn't. Now here he was smack in the middle of...wait a minute. Where...?

 

It was cool, though he didn't feel cold, only...not hot...and somehow that was good, the fact

it was not hot. Mist lay everywhere and he lifted his lightly-bearded face up into it, liking

the feel of it against his skin. Inhaling deeply, he felt the mist enter him, slide down into his

lungs and moisten them as well. Good, yes, very good. He looked down the quiet river,

silvery gray, its surface mirror-like and calm. It was moving slowly, if it were moving at all.

He decided it had to be moving as there was nothing about it that gave him the sense of

stagnation. Alive, yes, it was alive in its silvery calmness. Not far away it curved to the left

and was lost to sight, it's silvered waters merging with the silvered mist.

 

For a while he stood quietly, studying the tree reflections it spread before him, a visual

offering that should not be ignored. To the left were the leafless traceries made by those not

yet in the garb of spring. The willow occupied the right, its delicate greenness doubled by the

willing water. Just as he was thinking that it might be nice if the wands dipped themselves

into the wetness, completing the connection of tree and river, a sudden ripple broke the

surface and an arm appeared, a slender feminine arm, curved up then down as a hand

reached forward in a swimmer's stroke.

 

Odd, he hadn't seen her coming down the river. He waited, expecting to see her head rise

up, the familiar gulp of air a swimmer takes...but there was nothing... the little disturbance

she had made was gone and the river lay flat once more. He peered very hard, leaning forward,

wondering if he should, perhaps, be concerned.

 

"Ha-looo!" he called, as though his voice would penetrate down to some drowning soul. He

wondered that his voice did not echo in his own ears, and waited more, but there was such a sense of calmness everywhere and the very thought of a death struggle beneath the silvered surface seemed so out of place, that he sat down beside the willow, leaning his back against it, encompassed in a blanket of peace and gentle quietness.  He did keep an eye on the river, though...just in case.

 

Everything around him was so very different from...from what? He knew it was different from

something, but he couldn't think of it at the moment and it didn't, truly it didn't, seem all that

important. What was important was how the mist formed a layer of wetness on the willow

wands and when it grew heavy enough, it dripped from their tips, some of it falling on his

legs, some into the river. It was soundless, no mundane plop plopping sounds. That's when he

became aware that there was no sound. The world was overtly visual and that was enough.

Sound would have been extraneous. Quiet. He liked the quiet. It was opposite...of something.

 

Did he sleep? He wasn't certain, but when he opened his eyes, not even remembering having

closed them, it was somewhat darker, the mist thicker. Rising to his feet he followed a little

path that led away from the back of the willow.

 

 

He followed it with the looseness of expectation a man carries when it doesn't matter where

he's going.  The path turned back on itself, wound and rewound its way through the mist-draped

wood until it devolved into a walled garden. Stopping at its edge, he looked around. The

path had ended in a bed of sedum and iris, beyond which lay an untamed rose garden whose

gardener had long since moved on. The wall was high, too high to see beyond, and made of

concrete divided by brick columns. Once it had been white washed, but much of that was

faded now, red plainly evident on the bricks. In the center of each panel was a sculptured

bust, Greek or Roman he wasn't quite sure and it didn't really matter. The roses needed

pruning, or would if this were some public garden where women in white straw hats wandered

of a Sunday afternoon. But his garden had gone wild, as was its destiny and pruning shears

had no business here.

 

He didn't stop to smell a rose as he walked through the weedy grass. It wasn't necessary to

stop as the misty air was filled with their scent, holding it up, holding it there for him to

pass through. Weren't roses supposed to share their scent more fully in the warming of the

sun? No, these were mist roses, sweet yet delicate, almost intoxicatingly subtle in their

penetration of his soul. 

 

When he reached the further end of the garden he found the path again, his path, as he now

thought of it.  He walked for a while, his footsteps soundless, no watch to interrupt and force

its minutes into unnecessary awareness, even the seasons...loose...as some trees were in

autumn's leaf.  Rounding a bend, he came upon a cottage, the most rustic of its kind he'd

ever seen, something from a half-remembered storybook.  It walls were made from slabs

of trees, gnarled bark still on and that mostly coated with thirsty moss that drank the mist

and sucked its moistness inward to some satisfied core.

 

 

It wasn't that he was actually tired, but some desire to go inside and sit himself down for a

while took his fancy and he went to the little door, putting his hand out to grasp its handle,

but pausing before he touched it for it was, in itself, so appealing that it nigh required a

pause for appreciation to rise and show itself by lighting up the eyes.

 

 

Inside, was only a bed, piled in layers of eiderdown quilts and he lay upon them, sighing

gratefully, for gratitude was strong in him. Embraced in cloud-like feathered arms, he

closed his eyes and smiled.

 

"Hamilton! Oh, God, Hamilton!"

 

"Who is it, Captain?" He genuinely could not tell.

 

"Hamilton Grace, Sir, embedded journalist for the Times."

 

"He shouldn't have been here. I know they get permission for themselves, but the man should

not have been this far forward...not today."

 

Lightning struck the cottage, soundless but magnificent in its strength, and it jolted through

him, disturbing his rest. His back arched, his body stiffened, but he willed it to go away...and

it did.  He rested again, undisturbed, refusing to be disturbed.

 

In the morning he was refreshed and left the cottage, glad to set his feet once again on his

path.  The path wasn't straight, not in the least, and he liked that about it. There was a

freedom about the path, yes, that was it. The path was free and it wandered over little

hills, alongside small streams, through woodlands and across meadows as it willed with

no one taming it with edging bricks or paving stones that tried to tell it where to go.

 

 

 

He could see the river again now, through the thinning woodlands and thought he might go

and sit along its bank, possibly swimming in its silver waters. He wasn't sure. He'd just wait

and see what he did when he got there. Almost up to its edge, he stopped because someone

was lying there across his path. It was someone, yet it was not. The woman was made of

stone, lying nearly face down, but slightly more on her left side.  Except for her face, she was

entirely covered in moss and that seemed right for it blended her with the land, made her a

part of it.

 

She'd been there a long while for the moss to grow so thickly, and her hair was a thatch of

grasses that partially draped over one eye like the plume of some long-ago lady's hat. She

loved the earth. That much he could easily see.  Half of her was in it, part of it, and the rest

hugged into it with an almost tender caress of form. Something in the way the arm was bent,

the hand stretched out, brought to mind the swimmer in the misty river.

 

Sitting on a tree stump, he talked with her a while, telling her about the wild garden and

the little house.  He didn't mention the swimmer for he presumed she already knew of her.

 

 

 

He talked to her a long time. He guessed it was a long time. He didn't know. But he looked

away toward the river after...what?...after. After was all. And the river was almost invisible

in the thickening mist. When he looked back at the earth woman, for he'd come to think of her

as such, she'd changed and the moss was gone from her shoulder and hip, replaced by darker

ivy. She lay more deeply in the ground, her hand completely covered, and moss now rested on her cheek and her hairgrass was shorter, as if a season or two had passed and he had not noticed and now spring was beginning again.

 

Blinking, he rose from the stump, walked to the river's edge...and kept walking. The water

was cool around his legs, and good. Further he went then leaned forward and began swimming in the silver water and in the mist.

 

 

He swam through the delicate traceries of the leafless trees and under the willows where

their mists dripped down upon him. It was effortless and so cool, so delightfully cool after...

after something, something that had been hot and uncomfortable but no longer mattered

enough to be remembered.

 

The Army medic in the evac copter taking him to the base near Kabul shook his head. "Too

much, Sir. IED just damaged his head too much. That and all the burns. Doesn't look good.

Doesn't look good at all."

 

He swam alone downstream. Was it downstream? Without a current he wasn't really sure.

It didn't matter. It was cool and he liked the calm silver colors. He treaded water for a

while, tipping his face into the mist again, then something moved him to turn in the water

and swim back the way he'd come. He didn't know why. It didn't matter why. But as he

neared the willow, he began to hear the mist dripping from the slender, tapered leaves into

into the river's waters, just a small sound but almost like children laughing in a distant room,

down some long, untraversed hall.  It made him smile, the sound, and then he saw her again,

sure, steady, swimming in the mist directly toward him.

 

 

 

 

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